Hitting the Mummy Wall… to continue breastfeeding or not to breastfeed? That is the Question…


Falling asleep on my first cup of caffeine of the day!

Today i have to say i hit the wall… this is the term used when someone running say a marathon has used up all their energy reserves and can no longer work out how to put one foot in front of the other, but i hit the mummy wall. This is the wall a mummy hits when she is so sleep deprived, run down and has lost all will to function like a normal human being… hell i went to the shops without a shred of make up on earlier not even a lick of mascara, what has happened to me?

I have turned into a monster, every little thing my toddler does annoys me and even when i try to remain cool… well i don’t! I have flipped out so many times today and my little man just does not deserve it as he is such a good boy really.

I’m so tempted to throw the towel in with breastfeeding, isn’t it meant to be a magical experience between myself and Fred? At the moment i have yet another chapped nipple and he wants to feed off said chapped nipple regularly, i have had 6 months of this. I am so torn. Stop breastfeeding, get some sleep and be happy or carry on breastfeeding, be woken up every couple of hours and then continue to be this banshee that i have become?

I do not feel ready to give up breastfeeding completely just yet but i am starting to worry about my mental health, i have been running on empty for months and now that i have swollen glands added in the mix, I just feel so fed up and would give anything for 8 or even 6 gorgeous, uninterrupted hours sleep!

Tonight i have decided to give Fred formula before he goes to bed (we have been trying him on one bottle in the evening recently and he does sleep a little longer) AND give him one in the middle of the night, i will then go back to feeding him during the day tomorrow, i just hope my milk supply doesn’t pack its bags and bugger off somewhere.

I need to find a balance, as it stands there isn’t a balance, the only one benefiting from the breastfeeding is Fred, I am sleep deprived, Rowan is feeling the brunt of this sleep deprivation and poor Ollie either gets yelled at or cried upon, not sure which is worse for him when he walks through the door after a long day at work!

I remember going through something similar when Rowan was about 6 months old but i didn’t have another little person to think about back then and i also could lie in or have naps with him but i do not have that luxury with Fred… i curse the day we decided to pretend to lose Rowan’s dummy (about 3 weeks ago) and he promptly dropped his nap because of it, i soon waved goodbye to my 5 minutes breathing space and cuppa time.

I know things will get easier with time, Fred will start filling his tummy more with food and burn more energy to help him sleep at night, but for today, i hit the wall, i cried and then i went to bed. Tomorrow is another day…

Fred is 6 months old!!

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I can not believe this little fella has been in our lives for 6 whole months! It’s scary how quick that time has gone, it only feels like yesterday that he popped (literally) out of me!

Fred is such a pleasant baby, only grumbles when he is hungry and smiles all the time. He beams when he sees his big brother and he has started getting quite verbal, his favourite words are ‘Ro ro ro ro ro ro!’ to his brother Rowan’s delight!

He has done amazingly well at breastfeeding, we were still exclusively breastfeeding up until last week, we decided to introduce an evening bottle to help him sleep more, it helps but once that has worn off he wakes every 2 hours for a feed. He is a night time snacker and is not doing it for comfort, needless to say i am pretty exhausted, especially as Rowan has dropped his nap and i have been potty training him also (Rowan not Fred!)

We have started Fred on baby rice/baby porridge so far… this little stash that i won on a twitter competition has certainly helped. I love the Organix product range for both my boys.


He tried a bit of sweet potato, swede and carrot puree today, he wasn’t too sure about that one so i’m going to make up some fruit ones for him to try. I plan to do baby led weaning but just want to introduce some tastes to him first and he isn’t quite sitting up on his own yet for me to feel confident that he can feed this way. He has however played with tried banana and avocado slices, both of which he liked.


Fred is getting quite big considering he has only been living off my milk, i’m not sure of his exact weight but he has been filling his 6-9 month clothes for a good couple of weeks already.

Fred went swimming for the first time at the weekend, i wasn’t allowed to take any photos in the pool :( but he loved it, he was kicking around and wasn’t bothered by the splashing or the noisy pool. Think we will start taking the boys most weekends now.

Fred loves standing on his chubby legs and bouncing, i think if he was allowed he would stay in his door bouncer all day, everyday!

Rowan and Fred are becoming the best of friends, Rowan cares about his brother and is always getting him toys and asking him if he is ok. One of the most wonderful things about having children is watching the strong bond form between them.


Fred still has no teeth yet has been dribbling like crazy and chomping his hand to the point that his little face is so sore!


I have loved every second of the past 6 months with my boys… only 6 more months and Fred will be 1!! Sob!!!

Surviving Potty Training


We are now into our 2nd week of potty training, i started potty training Rowan last week to test the waters to see if he was ready. For months i have been asking him if he wants to sit on a potty and he has firmly replied ‘No!’ every time (to my relief as i have had my hands full with an almost 6 month old too). But last week, i thought, Rowan you’re 2 years, 8 months old – of course you’re going to say ‘no’ if i ask you to do something that is alien to you. So we went straight into it last week, nappy was taken off and the choice was pee in the potty or pee on the floor… well 2 pees on the floor later i was starting to wonder whether he was ready. Then out of no where he said ‘wee wee coming!’ and sat on the potty, we celebrated his 1st pee on the potty that day YAY!!!

We started to bribe tempt Rowan to use the potty more with a chocolate m&m and a star on his reward chart – it worked! He started telling us every time he needed a pee, but frustratingly he waited until he had his pull up on of a night to do a no 2!

Eventually he had gone 2 days without Mr Hanky the Christmas Poo showing up so he had no other option but to use the potty and thankfully he did (no poop on the carpet… yet!) He was absolutely fine about doing a poop in the potty, and although i was over the moon, i also thought how gross it was and how i was trying not to heave in front of him – it will get easier i know.

Over the weekend we had 2 days planned away from the house so put Rowan in pull ups, unfortunately this did us no favours and he started to pee without telling us he needed the toilet :(

Monday this week, i put us back under house arrest – he soon nailed using the potty for pees again but waited for the pull up to go on to do a poo. Today (tuesday) i decided to go out to a play group to see how he gets on in pants, but i didn’t feel brave enough to deal with a messy situation away from home as i also have baby Fred in tow. I put him in pants and then put a pull up on over the top so he would actually feel wet if he had an accident but he’s clothes would remain dry, i think this is the best option for us until he is fully trained. We got to group and he told me ‘wee wee coming’, i passed Fred to one of the girls who run the group and took him to the loo. He wasn’t happy with how cold the toilet seat was, so i popped him on the potty they had there. He didn’t go but i praised him for telling me he needed to go anyway. All through the session i kept asking him if he needed to wee and he said no. Before we left to walk home, i took him to the toilet to try and pee. I noticed that he had wet pants so had had an accident. As soon as i pulled his trousers down he said ‘wee wee in pants’ so he is aware that he had done it.

From there we have gone a little down hill, he has had a number of accidents this afternoon, telling me he is weeing as he is doing it. It’s frustrating as i thought he was getting it, he even looks a bit upset that he hasn’t used the potty and tells us he should have used the potty so knows where it should go.

I wouldn’t say i am surviving potty training but we are going to get there, maybe he isn’t ready yet but i think we have come too far to stop now. We are going up to the Midlands this weekend so he will be back in pull ups for the journey but will be in pants all weekend long.

If you have any tips for potty training, i would love to hear them!

Anatomy of a burrito!

The other day i couldn’t decide what to make for dinner, i had a free range chicken already cooked so i knew it was going to revolve that ingredient. I then randomly came across something on YouTube where a burrito was being made and i just knew that is what i wanted!

I had the chicken, we had tortilla wraps already bought, so i went about making some salsa, guacamole and refried beans.

I made all the fillings from scratch. It included;

Guacamole – 1 mashed avocado, juice of half a lime, chopped up cherry tomatoes, a little pinch of salt.

Oven baked salsa – about 12 cherry tomatoes diced, red and yellow pepper diced, onion diced and about a tablespoon of olive oil. I put it in the oven on 200c for about 30 mins.

Refried beans – pinto beans are usually used for refried beans but i didn’t have any so i used chickpeas! I put a drained can of chickpeas in my food processor, added about half a cup of passata, tsp of cumin, garlic, salt and pepper – whizzed it all up and there you have it!!

It was a real chuck it all together jobby! I couldn’t even be bothered to look up recipes which is very unlike me as i am not a risk taker when it comes to making my own recipes up!


This is how our burrito panned out.

After warming the tortilla in the microwave for 30 seconds i added a layer of refried beans (or chickpeas!)


Then i added a layer of rice


Next the pre-cooked chicken


Then the oven roasted salsa


Followed by the guacamole


The penultimate layer was the dairy layer, a bit of grated cheese and natural yoghurt


I finally added a layer of mixed leaf salad.The burrito was then rolled up and to make it even more authentic i served them wrapped in foil with tortilla chips.


The end verdict, the most amazing meal i think i have ever made!! It was so delicious, the mixture of flavours just worked, even the hubby was impressed and he’s not a massive fan of tomatoes or avocado!!


This is definitely going to appear on our dinner plates again very, very soon!


Father’s Day by the sea…

For Father’s Day all Ollie wanted to do was spend time with the boys and as the weather was going to be nice we headed to the in-laws in Brixham.

The weather was glorious on the Saturday so we headed to Goodrington Sands in Paignton.


It was a little hot for Fred so after a while we walked into Paignton town to grab an iced coffee.


On Father’s Day, Ollie was woken by a very excited Fred… well it was his first father’s day! So we all had a cuddle together.


After breakfast we headed to Brixham harbour for some intense crabbing!!



Rowan beat his crabbing personal best and caught 8 little crabbies – i also managed to catch a fish but threw it back in!


We headed to a restaurant on the harbour front to treat the daddy’s to lunch,


It wasn’t a bad view at all to eat a gourmet burger!


After, we were all completely stuffed so walked it off around the beautiful harbour,





The day pretty much ended as it started, except Ollie ended up having a nap with both Fred and Rowan… all in all i think he had the most perfect Father’s Day!


Super Victor Vitamin C!!!

Meet SUPER VICTOR VITAMIN C!!! He is the healthy superhero created by my 2.5 year old and me. He is our entry into the Tots100/Plum Baby Mighty Moments challenge!



Super Victor Vitamin C is here to save little people from dreaded sniffles and coughs.

His lemon head can be squeezed into hot water and honey if a fuzzy head is kicking in.

His lime hands can make any boring glass of water all citrusy and yum!

His orange belly can be juiced to make a lovely OJ ice lolly,

And his carrot legs can be dipped in hummus, they are so strong, they even crunch when bitten by the strongest of little people’s teeth!

In the winter Super Victor Vitamin C even grows a beard of broccoli but this is his summer look :)

His cape means he can fly to any destination where a cold may be lurking, he’s on a one healthy super hero mission to keep little people’s immune systems strong one common cold at a time!



If you have the sneezes and sniffles…. Super Victor Vitamin C will come to the rescue!!!!

What I have been Baking & Cooking recently…

I quite like baking and cooking and recently i have been remembering to take photos of some of my creations and i thought i would share them with you!

First things first, one of my little family favourites is homemade pizza! Recently, we were running late and bought a shop bought pizza, i could not believe the number of ingredients in one pizza, half the things listed i didn’t even know what the ingredient was! So i know that when i make pizza myself, there is only a handful of ingredients and i know exactly what is in it.

My go to pizza base is by Delia Smith, i have been using this recipe for a number of years and haven’t had a disaster yet.


For the topping the staples are passata, oregano and cheese – then i throw everything and anything on top. The one i made recently had salami and black olives – yum!













The next thing that was a success was the Madeira cake and Ginger Stem Shortbread i made for when my family came to visit not long ago (click on the links to get the recipes). They were so easy to make and tasted so nice. I have since made another batch of the shortbread and the Madeira cake will be making an appearance again soon!



The next thing i made was a kind of cottage pie i guess, it was one of those days where i had lots of bits and pieces to use up in the fridge and it ended up a success! Even when i realised that i only had jersey potatoes and no white potatoes to mash, it still worked out ok.


Here’s what i threw in this little jem of a pie:

  • 375g lean mince beef
  • Half a carton of passata (about 150ml)
  • 2 tablespoons tomato puree
  • Onion
  • Minced garlic
  • Splash of Rice wine vinegar
  • low salt vegetable stock cube
  • 1 teaspoon Marmite
  • herbs (basil, oregano)

Brown the mince, onion and garlic, then add the passata, tomato purée, rice wine vinegar, stock cube, Marmite and herbs. Let it simmer for 15-20 minutes to thicken. Transfer into a casserole dish and arrange sliced jersey potatoes on top. Brush potatoes with milk and add a bit of butter to help brown whilst cooking. Cook on 190 for about 40 minutes or until the potatoes are brown. And that’s it!

What i love most about cooking/baking is getting Rowan involved, he loves helping mummy in the kitchen.

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I wish i was more creative when it came to inventing my own recipes but it usually goes horribly wrong if i attempt to divert only slightly from an existing recipe.

Do you enjoy making up recipes or are you a recipe follower like me?

Fred’s 5 month update

Sorry blogging every day in June hasn’t quite happened, i’m a very sleep deprived mum at the moment and just going with the flow… what i would give for 8 hours straight sleep! It’s been 5 months of broken sleep… what? 5 months? my baby is 5 months old?


Wow my baby is 5 months old already… erm, how did that happen? It seemed to take forever for Rowan to get to 5 months, but Fred has just gone from newborn to 5 months!

So what do we know about Fred… he is the sweetest, happiest little man on the block. If he’s not smiling, he’s giggling. I love the way he chuckles when i change him, he’s very ticklish like his daddy and brother. At his last weigh in 2 weeks ago he was 14lb 15oz, putting him in the upper 25th percentile.


He is still exclusively breastfed, he has been waking every 2 hours during the night but he is going a little longer between feeds now, which means i feel like i’m getting into a deeper sleep finally.

He has the most beautiful blue eyes, i’m sure they’re going to stay but if not i have some gorgeous photos of his baby blues.


He is just starting to roll but only on his side and only to the left! He loves holding his feet and pulling his socks off!

He LOVES his big brother, i love that when he clocks Rowan in the morning he smiles and giggles.


He has been chewing on his hand and dribbling LOTS but there is no sign of any teeth just yet.


Fred is very similar to Rowan, very easy and laid back (thank goodness), i was warned that i wouldn’t be so lucky with the second one but they were all wrong.

He’s not showing signs that he is ready for food yet, Rowan was being weaned at this age but Fred still seems content and is putting on more weight than Rowan did. Think we will carry on until he is ready or is 6 months (only 4 short weeks away!!)

Trying the high chair for size!

Trying the high chair for size!

And finally, he is just moving into his 6-9 month clothes… sob! So this week i will be packing up his 3-6 months clothes and giving them away. It feels so sad that another chapter is over every time i sort through his clothes.

#blune Day Two – Project Me update

A few weeks ago i blogged about ‘Project Me‘, i listed a number of areas i wanted to improve on in my life – well i have started to chip away at this list and i am already feeling a lot better than i did. I haven’t really been documenting what i have done, but there has been some exercise, mostly healthy eating, LOADS of de cluttering and meeting a lot of mini targets that i have set myself. The main thing that i have been working on is changing my mindset, this seems to have been the biggest impact on me reaching my goals.

But i need structure so i have created my ‘June Project Me Challenge’. I have basically took a number of 30 day challenges readily available on the internet that relate to my goals. Each day i get to tick off everything that i have completed. I’m going to try and do my best to stick to it for the whole 30 days, i have just completed day 2 – so far so good!

The challenges that i am following are below;

  1. 30 day Abs Challenge (on facebook) Including an extra workout for postnatal mums.
  2. 30 day squat challenge (on facebook)
  3. 30 day spring cleaning challenge (on Pinterest)
  4. 30 day mom challenge (on Pinterest)

Today i had to do 20 sit ups, 8 crunches, 8 leg raisies and a 12 second plank, in addition to this i did a 3 second cat raise 3 times. I completed 55 squats also – i did all this before 6:30am and have felt great all day. It’s now 9pm and i’m starting to feel a little weary!

I have written my plan down so i can tick it off each day.


I also cleaned my refrigerator out, which didn’t take long as i deep cleaned it recently.



Before and after fridge cleaning.

As part of the mom challenge, it required me not yelling all day… and you know what, i didn’t yell once! Therefore i have had a GREAT day! and so has Rowan because he has a happy mummy who feels like she is one step closer to her goals.

I can’t wait to get on with day 3 tomorrow!

#Blune Day One – A positive start!

I’m going to attempt to blog every day in June… therefore i’m calling it #blune, see what i did there? Yes, i know i’m a little late with day one but after a lovely weekend with my family and then getting home to do day 1 of the 30 Day AB and Squat challenge, i crashed out at 9:30pm!! This is so unheard of for me, i am such a night owl, so my body must have been craving sleep. So here i am 5:30am on a Monday morning – wide awake. Rather than lay in bed, i’m writing this blog post, drinking a cup of coffee in peace and going to do day 2 of the AB/Squat challenge.

We didn’t actually get up to too much over the weekend. We had a park date with some friends and then Ollie took to sorting our teeny, tiny garden out, but i can’t complain really, it’s nice to have a garden albeit small! We got rid of tons of items that have just been clogging up the house, it feels so good to wake up to a house that has less stuff hanging around – goodbye clutter!

Yesterday evening we were all craving some time by the sea so we headed to Exmouth and had a relaxing walk along the seafront. It’s not quite tourist season yet, so there were lots of locals and it wasn’t too busy. I felt inspired by all the people out for a jog and had a feeling that the next 30 days are going to be really positive. Being by the sea does that to you, all things that bother you melt away and you are left so relaxed.

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So here’s to a positive, successful 30 days ahead, it’s already got off to a great start!

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